Growing up I was pretty much sheltered.
My parents didnt send me to do activities. In their mind im safest at home...
I grew up with boys, this means with my neighbours and cousins who were, well yes, boys.
And then I got sent to that dreadful girl school. And ofc I had trouble at the beginning. I didnt get along. Somehow I made myself fit in which means letting others dictate. Because that is how I got shaped from the beginning. Others are more important and at the end you yourself.
I have always been a very shy intorverted girl. The way I got brought up intensified it. I didnt feel like my opinions count, that uttering my needs would be heard and most of all nobody had time for me.
I didnt know how to socialize because I never got a chance to. And why would I who was aware of that put myself in danger?
With 15 I had to spend the summer at my aunts place, it was horrible.
With 17 somebody asked me if I didnt like to talk.
With 20 a friend told me I have issues interacting.
Why is it that
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